yes, i think it must be related that exactly.

your comments about illogical thinking and feelings is interesting to me. i struggle a lot with fully feeling things sometimes.... perhaps i am brushing them off too soon as "illogical thoughts"... hmmm. something for me to think about and hopefully start becoming more aware of.

thank you for going through this with me, by the way, it has opened my eyes a little and perhaps i will ask for any needs i may have with her next time. i suppose therapy is suppose to be as safe a place as any. i guess i'm just afraid of the feeling of rejection the most to be honest.