Depression schmession... what I feel is what I feel. I cant change what my husband is pushing onto me. And what he is ripping me of. I cant find a thing to hope for or look forward to right now. Theres nothing there. And I hate it !!!!!!!!! I hate being this way cause its not me. Its not ME!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooo scared of this hole I am in. I cant do this. I cant go back there again!