An old girlfriend of mine called me today. We have much history, but I put some distance between us for many reasons. She and I always knew that the other was there for each other for the really big things. She would call out of the blue and talk, etc. We just live two very different lives now.

She called this morning at 7:20 crying and saying that she needed help. I couldn't get ahold of anyone after I woke up! Finally I got ahold of her son this evening and found out she's in the hospital.

I called her father and we talked for such a long time. She had very difficult childhood and we shared much. She's such a strong person. She still is and will get through this. Her father said that she was having panic that meds wouldn't help and it wouldn't end. They admitted her. I'm worried there's more to it. I know her.

I feel so bad that I didn't hear that phone call. She called me because she knew that I'd understand and be there for her and I wasn't. I'm not blaming myself, but I still feel so badly for her. She's gone through alot and has still raised two children on her own and is quite the successful business woman. She's dealt with entirely too much for entirely too long.

She's going to need a good friend who's been where she's at and I will be there for her. Knowing her history, I know that she has quite a battle ahead of her right now. It's come to the point where she can't run anymore. I remember that time so clearly for me.

I still hear her voice crying into the phone. She was so scared. She shows fear of nothing and was so scared.

Send her healing thoughts with me?

Thank you!

KD