I want to be happy so bad; to look to a new day with meaning and joy. But only pain and confusion are there waiting for me. Pushing me into a tizzy making me yell for relieve. But none comes. You wouldn't know it if you saw me at a small distance. But you might feel it if you dare to come close. This world can be nice, I suppose.

My body shakes in sadness and dispair. Don't think I will ever love again. Don't think I can.