why do you feel the need to si again? what's going on? stress, anxiety, ambivalence, worries??? there must be some kind of trigger,.... one thing that struck out at me when reading your post was that you said you don't WANT to si again. I know this may not seem like a big thing to you but it is b/c at least you can genuinely try to do something about it instead of just "letting it happen" b/c you don't care. I know you said you don't care but the more of an option si seems and the less of an option it seems that this "feeling" will go away, the more likely you're to feel this way. mmmh... if you were to leave the house (which might be a good idea to get your mind off things) can you drag a friend along so you won't be tempted to buy razors? does anything work for you to get over the urge to si?? could you do that? or call a friend, write, keep yourself busy- that's the only thing I find works at least in the S/T b/c you're sort of forcing yourself to focus on something else. hope all goes well.