my daughter was looking for a folder for college, she found one in my room and asked if I needed it? i looked at it and didn't recognise and took it of her and opened it. inside was written work and journals I had to do 8yrs ago when I was in treatment. You know reading it I didn't have any emotional investment in what Id written, similar stuff to what you've been asked to write, it felt like stereotypical ramblings stating how I felt, I just didn't have the emotional abilty at that stage to really have any insight or understanding into myself...I find myself using different language when I now think about things I may feel about myslef...its only as I have discovered myslef many times over during my 6yrs of therapy do i have answers to some of those questions, though written questions at times only allow for limited answers, they proberbly are a startinf point for learning to focus on our inner worlds, like you have asked here is an example of how you fell the answer to who you are is in the hands of others, which I use to do, mainly because I wasn't allowed to "be" in my family growing up so I lived for how others were and never got to know me or grow a healthy selfrespect...talking and talking over the yrs your answers will change, your idea of who you are will change and one day your be able to author your own questions...
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