Thank you for the advice. I am working on getting counseling. He is not ex-military or anything. Actually, mostly he is a very calm, mild mannered person. That makes me more confused by this. It does not happen often but he does seem to always nag me about my son. It's like he has a grudge. He trys to stay out of things between my son and myself most of the time. Maybe he just holds things in too much. But, when he explodes, it is never even at a time when I feel it is warented. It so out of proportion to what is actually going on. This time was the worst. I still cannot believe he got a gun... I just cannot shake it. I cannot even get myself motivated to want to do anything in my life right now but then I will sit there and think "am I making this worse than it is" or "why am I acting so down." And I wonder if I should just let it go, after all my son will be moving in the summer because he will be transferring to another college. Then maybe it will never happen again. I know I sound crazy, I feel like that right now. He is not opposed to going to counseling with me. As I told you, he is generally a very sweet man. At the same time, I'm worryed about bringing up my worries about the gun when he is present because he still thinks that is not the problem and he also thinks he is helping me by going because I have have things in my past that seem to come back sometimes. I fine but for some reason, like since this happened, everything from my past came flooding back which is another reason I keep having doubts about it all and wondering if I'm making this worse than it is.