i dont think you are a liar at all.i often think this about myself.i have spent a long time thinking that i have always blown things out of porportion.reciently i have come to think of it a bit differntly.i used this therory to protect myself from really feeling the impact of what really went on .i mean i would always write about things and know what went on was horrific and all but in my mind feeling like it was no big deal and how can i ever say this stuff to other people.although knowing this doesnt help me at all i still feel like a big lie.so i dont think you are a liar at all.i may be wrong but i bet it is a way of protecting yourself from really feeling the pain you are going throuugh on an even deeper level.please be gentle with yourself