Hmmm don´t know exactly what I mean... going to bed.... stay there...Well, life is way too much right now! You don´t have to worry about me killing myself, because that´s not me! I´m still a fighter deep inside, but I just can´t find the strength today! It´ll come back, but not today...have to wait and see... Have to endure!

Thanks for caring ! Hope you´re feeling ok!

Nina