@Wolf

No apology needed, thankyou for your input.

I'll look into the two therapies. Oddly enough, while I'm apathetic towards my father, I'm uncomfortable with the hollywood my-fathers-at-fault theme. I think it's bc I appreciate that he worked hard to support the family. I'm equally torn by the fact that his hard work led to my general misery, and he probably worked so hard bc he was annoyed with failure. It obviously led to mixed results.

But as you can see, i'm back and forth with my feelings about it all. So I'm coming to terms that I shouldn't rule it out. I do think addressing this issue would be one step forward

Thanks again