i don't care anymore. i'm sick of all of this bi polar crap. even on drugs i have mixed episodes, and spend large amounts of my time crying in front of my computer alone. hell i even had the office on, and i couldn't laugh. nothing was funny even though it was!

depression hurts for us bpII's; there is not much we can do for it. i'm not trying to belittle BP 1 sufferers, in fact i have the utmost respect for what you go through. It's just that i'm weak. i'll alwasy be weak, and quit.

i just want to live my life as plain as i can. i'll figure out ways to handle the depression, and the hypomania, well, it feels darn good.