<font color="purple">You are not alone in this... There are times when I am able to distract and keep from s/i but then there are those heavy urges and thoughts that just wont go away no matter what I do or try to distract and i feel the inner struggle with it gets so intense it hurts.....I wish i had some great advice to offer, but all I can offer is support in knowing you are not alone and that all of us here care about you. I have hope that there is something out there or in us that we will find that will be a stronger distraction than the s/i itself....something positive. Dont give up, keep trying to find that distraction that may work for you. Do you have support friend or fmaily member near by that could come over or you could call and maybe help you too? I do find many times that my H is a good source for me and sometimes just hearing his voice is what refocuses my thoughts and attention towards something else...
Melinda </font>