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ballet_girl · Jan 20, 2011, 12:45 PM

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Originally Posted by granite1

i dont think you are a liar at all

.i often think this about myself.i have spent a long time thinking that i have always blown things out of porportion.reciently i have come to think of it a bit differntly.i used this therory to protect myself from really feeling the impact of what really went on .i mean i would always write about things and know what went on was horrific and all but in my mind feeling like it was no big deal and how can i ever say this stuff to other people.although knowing this doesnt help me at all i still feel like a big lie.so i dont think you are a liar at all.i may be wrong but i bet it is a way of protecting yourself from really feeling the pain you are going throuugh on an even deeper level.please be gentle with yourself

Thanks Granite. This is what my T says that I do, but you are right, it doesn't make me feel like any less of a liar. And how am I supposed to know if she is right? Maybe for most people this is true but maybe what happened to me really wasn't a big deal so I should just find a way to stop thinking about it. And when T tells me things like I was dissociating, it makes me feel like she is making excuses for me instead of actually hearing me.