swe did you post about your dream i'm sorry i must have missed it and i cant find it.it seems like you feel you are moving backwards a bit with having this dream.i hope you will get up the strength to talk to T about it and help you see just how far you have come in the three years.i dont know about you but the statement do you think you are in that olace about taking a break would scare me so much it may cause me to jump back a few paces,because i know how much work i need to do.i know you are at a far differnt place with your T then me but it can still be scarey