CesoraioRose:

I understand how you feel, been there and felt simular. I'm not going to try to talk you out of it because no one can but yourself. If you don't believe medications will help then they never will. Do some research on alternative treatments for depression/BP/schz KNOW your choices before making a harsh decision. The medications you listed are long lasting medications, you won't notice any significant differences for maybe a few weeks. (except the clonzapam)

Great point by Perna that its not "always about me" that matters. It's hard to remember that, I struggle with that sometimes too. But once someone told me "Some one in your life will be devastated if something went wrong". Hold on and keep trying what is best for you...it's a long tuff road but think about how "proud" you will be knowing you made it!