@E1234567

Yea, unfortunately I'm also a bit timid/shy now so meeting new ppl (especially putting myself out there in this state) is a high anxiety task for me. I feel like if I put on a fake happy face they'll see right thru. So i withdraw a lot. This is not a main problem b/c I think it'll work itself out when I can get myself back to mental strength

My parents have actually said that very thing to me. I think in those exact words too. I really don't try to let them dictate my actions, but there is a small influence. However, I still feel the need to appease my father just to make my mom's life easier. It's not that I'm forced to do this, it's b/c I don't want him spilling his negativity to my mother. She's pretty much forced to be his emotional sponge. I don't think that's healthy at all. It is annoying to me tho

I don't have trouble putting down pot, but I do find I'm much more inflective and clairvoyant. I've actually come to understand myself a LOT more. It's nice. You think it could really have THAT much of an effect on everyone?