I feel like I am being bombarded with thoughts and feelings. I can't seem to hold on to the ones that are important and others are just free floating.

My youngest lost his pacifier tonight. I have been meaning to take it away for a long time. He had been using it just for sleep, and now he is upstairs in his bed crying his eyes out. I can't console him.

I keep going back and forth between wanting to scream at him to shut up and wanting to cry in a sobbing puddle on the floor because I can't fix it.

I can't find it and I have looked all over.

I don't know what to do. I want to go back on Lamictal because my mood was more even. I wish I could describe my mind right now. I couldn't handle my body's reaction to Lamictal, though.

Help.... I just want to scream out for help...