((((((((((((sawe)))))))))))))

I have had SO many dreams about T...

In my most recent dream, his office was filled with other people (Ts and clients) who were also doing therapy. It was totally distracting, and I couldn't concentrate. I got a call that one of my kids was missing and I ran out to find him and when I came back, T was sleeping on the couch, totally unconcerned.

That was a GOOD dream about T @_@

While I do think that my T dreams tell me SOMETHING about what's going on, I don't think it's "bad". It might mean I'm feeling distrustful, or threatened, or ignored, or whatever....but that doesn't unravel the relationship or all of the work we've done so far. In the BEST of relationships we'll have times when we have feelings that aren't "good"....that's just part of being in a relationship. And I feel like in the T relationship, all of those feelings are multiplied by about 578295298572, because it's so intense, and so intimate.

And your reading of the dream - that you still have trust issues after three years of therapy - may be spot on, and totally okay. *I* still have trust issues after three years of therapy...like elliemay said, it took me WAY longer than three years to get to where I am now....it's going to take a while to heal.

Be gentle with you, sawe. You are not doing ANYTHING wrong.