Ben...You are right...the high achiever thing is a problem - a hindrance, more than anything...I am trying to get back to "that" and I don't know how...

I expect to be perfect all the time, so going from how I was to being unable to drive a car b/c of anxiety makes me a little....uhh...mad? Upset? I am going, what the heck?

Where did I go?? Existential crisis.

Jax, Lex, and EJ - thanks for the support...

I feel better today - posted that up in general.

Yes, I have PTSD. Depression, anxiety, etc, etc, etc, just want to see the road out...I have to start from 0.

Therapists instructions:

Get in the car. Drive to the end of the driveway. Drive around the block. Keep doing that. Then drive to my office.