Easier to deal with my emotions??? This is the part I'm finding so difficult.

Is SI something that you can start over time? e.g. I SI by taking meds I know are going to make me feel terrible, that are going to put strain on me physically, and that have the potential to do serious damage.

Can this get more extreme? (More tablets, more frequent)... Or is it possible that over time you change your method of SI?
I ask this because sadly the concept is growing on me more and more. My logical mind has stopped me from cutting, and at times it's even managed to stop me from ODing. But can I always rely on this?