It's another difficult day being me. I began and deleted a post twice. I know the tools and techniques for self-soothing. I know how to plan goals and take small steps. I know how to improve social skills, and First Things First, and the Serenity Prayer, and the value of helping others. I still feel lousy and alone and very, very tired. The situational stressors in my life are unending. Being a homeowner with no money other than SSDI, being single, no family, few friends, having a big, high energy dog who is no longer trustworthy to run and play off-leash with other dogs due to the recent emergence of occasional fear aggression.

The prolonged, severe stress is eroding my cognitive abilities. I'm really losing I.Q. points. Medication and therapy are not helping. I feel I'm screaming, but making no sound. Sorry for being so repetitive in my posts. I can't remember what I say. My life is like the movie, Groundhog Day.