Today my T gave me this card that says this:
Today I will tell myself that I am lovable. Just because some people haven't been able to love me in ways that worked doesn't mean that I'm unlovable. I've had lessons to learn, and some of them have hurt me deeply, but I can still love, and I still am loved. ----

I have this thing in me that says I am too flawed to be loved too much....that people may start out loving me, loving who they think I am or what they think they see on the surface, but if/when the underneath is more visible, how could anyone love me? And since I see, and I live in, the underneath, I find it so hard to love me, just as I am....the dirt and the gold together....or to believe that there is gold in there at all! And I'm not only not loving myself as I am, but not thinking others are able to do it either....when in fact, perhaps they can do that much more than I even begin to understand!