its the same old *****. nothing ever changes. im still sitting here without a therapist and without meds. i couldnt even go to the doctors office today for christs sake. im gonna keep trying (i think) to get myself out of this whole. however, its exhausting and annoying and alot of the time i just want to give up and die already. my dreams mean something to me but all of it seems so impossible and sometimes i just dont give a f**k anymore......i dont know....its just me whining again.