It feels next to impossible to me most of the time, too....today I'm in a good enough place I can just about believe it, that maybe I am at least a bit lovable, really and truly, faults, flaws, wounds and all! If I can hold on to it tomorrow and the next day, well, it will be a wonder.....but if I can begin by believing it's not impossible that I am lovable/can be loved/can even learn how to love myself, why then, maybe bit by bit it becomes more possible!
You say 'almost impossible' Sawe .... maybe there's something in you at least that doesn't think it's totally impossible....therefore maybe it is more possible than you think! (yep, I know my logic is sort of odd! )