I know how difficult the change might be.....When my ex husband and I got separated, for a long time I couldn't eat or sleep....the sleeping part was the worse thing ever....but I went through it....and I'm so happy that I did....I felt so unhappy and unattractive when I was with him...and of course I gained weight, because we ate more than doing anything else....He was even complaining why I kiss him....He told me several times that he doesn't feel kissing and nobody in his family do that! OMG....now that I think about those days, I think I was crazy to stay in that relationship.....

Just think deeply....Is it good to stay with him and have affair? Is it good to stay with him and say no to sex all the time? these are questions that you are the only one who can answer to them....

but for me....one day of freedom is better than living in that hell.....

After we got separated, I filed for divorce so quickly and we got divorced within 4 months....In Canada, you need to wait till at least a year to get divorce unless both sides claim that they were not together.....well....he was so mad at me at that time and he agreed with me to say that although we were living together but we were not intimate.....(and that was so true....he never slept even in the same bed with me!).....yes, our divorce went through very quickly....and guess what? after exactly a year....he changed his mind....he was sending me flowers, letters, talking to my friends to get me back....yes, it's been four years and he still tries....I'm so glad that I got divorced from him....so glad....but at the time, I was so fragile and not sure if I'm making a right decision.....

There are lots of good guys out there....You can feel alive with them again!

good luck
marjan