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i officially give up. six no cannot help you....no i do not work with your insurance....and sorry i cannot recommend anyone who can help you.
So hurt frustrated angry and mixed up. there just are no tears or ...........punishing the body hurts who?
Anger at us for being.
what happens now?
Cannot punish anyone but us. Obviously just wrong....wrong for being poor...wrong for surviving.....wrong for trying to get help...wrong to come here with this knotted issue.....wrong to want help....always alone....solve this mess alone....only wealthy find help easily.....or they can afford help.
So...there is no one out there to help us. Medicare, medicaid.....not a living soul....Even PC cannot help. ......we have to find a way to fix ourselves. Or.....we could leave....exit once the mother goes.
the T too far away will not have to worry or not worry.....there will be no need to not be available.......not that anyone would be sorry....first t would not be sorry.....she had nothing to do with our departure....it was our sickness, ....our abandonment issues....nothing at all with saying good-bye over the phone during a crisis and not providing any assistance in finding another T. Mistake? yep. Was made to feel we were a mistake by being born......mistake surviving.....mistake not finding a way to join the group.....cannot blame anyone at PC why we make few friends and trust even fewer people.....Cannot blame anyone......just can hate.....hate this existence....hate struggling....hate being depressed and still asked to function....hate being alone.....hate not having a buddy someone to cry with.....hate....hate....hate....hate the burning hot liquid running down onto the keyboard. Punish? Punish who? punish the ones that help make us? Punish G-d for not taking us home....Maybe G-d abandoned us too.....maybe the supreme being does not want to be bothered with us just like the first T?....we are overly sensitive....who do we tell about quitting? We have no one. PC is not the place. What about the hot line?.....hot line cannot find a T for us. Hot line can only listen....or pretend to listen....keep searching DrJohn says.....once you give up hope you give up everything the pdoc says.....How do we continue?......just do it.....World why? Why is everything so very hard? Why cannot someone help us? World it is always us that is wrong....so our thinking is wrong....ssssssssssssssss.........what is right? our love and caring for other people is right......i think.
well typing has kept the hands busy....so that has been right and good. As long as we give to others....it does not matter is nothing comes back in.....perhaps our mission is to just please others....just not upset anyone......make sure the world is at ease even if .............Is this another test by the supreme being? F supreme being you know where we are....so you want to see how far you can push before we go over? then you can pass judgment and condemn us to eternal H-ll with all the things that trigger us happening over and over and over with no break. Is this what love feels like Supreme being? Is this how you love us? we do not understand.
We did like smelling the flowers. we like watching babies laugh. we enjoyed the snow, and the spring, and the fall leaves. we enjoyed the feel of clay in our hands, we enjoyed graduation....we cannot leave...we have to learn how to use the new insulin pump. We do not seem very greatful that we got the new pump so we. okay We apologize. Focus on the new pump we will. Besides nothing else matters.
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