(((((((((((((Zoo))))))))))))))

I KNOW it's hard not to spiral into the "well, this proves it, I'm too much, T is burned out" place...but from what you have said, and from words that your T has said, I really believe that if T needed a break, she would say "Zoo, I need to some self-care, so I'll be less available tomorrow" or whatever. Maybe she's sick, maybe she's misplaced her phone, maybe her battery died, maybe, maybe, maybe. There are SO many reasons T might be unavailable. Try not to put it on you.

T and I made a "top 10 things that suck about therapy" list recently, and I had "Disappearing Therapist" WAY near the top of the list. T has such a busy life, and sometimes, it really is like he disappears. I e-mailed him Tuesday and asked for a reply, and he still hadn't replied when I saw him on my appt for Thursday. He said that he opened his e-mail Thursday morning and was like "ohhhhhh no"...not in an "Ohhhhhh no, tree e-mailed me" kind of way, but in a "oh no, I feel bad that I missed this" kind of way. He hadn't been on his e-mail since before I had e-mailed on Tuesday because of some crazy things he has going on in his life. So it wasn't me. At all.

And I bet it's not you either.

Be gentle with you