I'm sorry you're feeling so vulnerable. I know it's terrible to feel this way. I run from a lot of things, too. You could say I've been running a life-long marathon! I seem to run from everything! So I really do know where you're coming from.

I do not believe that you are ugly. You are one of the most beautiful people I know. Of course I'm not one to go by looks, either. I know being an attractive person on the outside matters to a lot of people, but I wouldn't base everything on that. Some of the most physically attractive people are the most ugliest people in the world! I also struggle with weight and not having many friends. I know I do not have any close friends. I have one friend that I on occasion hang out with, but that's it. I really don't have anyone else.

Try to hang in there and I hope you can find a way to get a break from this vulnerability.