I think it's really great that you're clean now. I feel terrible that you've cut so badly, though. Is there anything we can do for you right now? People see cutting as being unstable, yes. Of course, they don't understand what else you COULD be doing.

Maybe you could try keeping yourself extra busy when you feel the urge to cut. I have to keep my hands really busy and occupied when I want to cut. I have to type, write, or clean constantly...even if I don't want to do it.

I've been a cutter for the last 15 years now and have found that keeping your hands busy is the key to staying cut-free. I also understand that cutting keeps you from doing more harmful things, too. Like if I didn't cut I'd probably be dead. Yeah, my cutting keeps me from taking a bunch of pills or worse.

Try to hang in there and stay safe. We really want you around!