Lex,

I understand this feeling all to well. I spent a period of time being terrified to leave the house and even at points I couldnt even look out the windows. I spent weeks like this until it was time for me to see my T. Even then, I couldnt go alone. HUbby went with me. When it was over I went straight back to the house and didnt leave until the next week. I know how difficult this can be. It is a fear that not many can really understand. However, the bright side is that it can change.

Like the others said above getting out is really what you need but to push yourself could also set you back so you gotta take it slow.....baby steps. We are all familier with that right?

I would start with a few minutes a day for a few days of just sitting on the steps righ outside the front door. Only about 5 minutes or so. Increase it by 1-2 minutes per day. After a week, try walking to the mail box. Dont go past the mail box for a few days. After that, make gradual step further and further along. Remember, the key is not to push yourself. If you make yourself do too much at once, it can set you back even further so please, be easy and gentle with yourself. Your not alone. So many people experience what you are experiencing.

Perhaps listing your fears would also help. I know that I journaled so much during that period of time. Although it was difficult and painful at times, it did help me identify certain triggers which I was either able to avoid or deal with little by little.

Please keep us posted, LEX.

Take good care of yourself.

Big huggles,

Jen