Hi Jen,

I'm so glad you're sticking with this, and working through it.

My feelings are that your son doesn't really need to know the details from your past life. What concerns him is how you are towards him now. He is a youngster and will forgive and forget, especially if you surround him with lots of love when you are feeling up to it.

In my experience children are very forgiving if they know that their Mum or Dad has an illness. We can't hide it from them, but they will give us the credit for fighting it, you can be sure of that.

When my daughter was about 20 I heard her tell someone, "My Dad has his dark times, but he's OK."

IMHO that is what to aim for, an understanding from our children that we have it hard, but that we are OK with them.

Whatever you do, Jen, I hope you won't beat yourself up over this incident. We are pretty special people, here at PC, and we have to handle our wobbly lives as best we can. Of course we slip back sometimes, and then we just get up and start over. That's the game we are in unfortunately.

That's my bit of advice, and I'm sure there will be lots more warm messages coming your way.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Jen))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Good thoughts, M

PS -We worry because we care IMHO