Thanks. I try to be gentle but the one part and I come from such different places even though I know we are all me. And I know she is out more because she is angry and rightfully so...
T doesn't work with parts ("Too messy") and I know deep down massage T would still care but it feels like such a risk when massage T is so gentle, loving and humble and this part is anything but those.
The one IRL person who "knows" her is proving to not be safe... really not safe. But we aren't ready to look at that yet. T wants us to but its hard when what happened includes different parts and she doesn't seem to want to go there. Would go to T if she would let ALL of us share our sides so she could get a complete picture... but she won't. Tried massage T but she gets really mad. Some of us know that is good she gets mad, it means she cares. Others get upset or frightened when she gets mad though and then she doesn't hear their part of the story.