The comment about having past friends who see me thinking i'm different, fake-or else aloof and withdrawn...i really relate too. Making friends has never really been a problem: sadly, it's like 'performance' time and i add energy to the room. However, i can't remember anyone's names, lose the thread of others' conversation and get so distracted that it seems like i'm being so rude when i cut them off to get another water. I become the most selfish, loud person ...and i just want to go home and be alone. I avoid 'reunion' like lunches-my life feels like it's been such a mess and though i shouldn't, now i just don't show up. Keeping correspondence is good though. The memory can look back at previous letters!
..One day i might let someone in a little-other than my t-but that will be when i learn to accept this condition!