blatant honesty right now i feel like i cant mentally and emotionally be a mom my husband and i r separated & he has them & i rarely even see them i feel all this stuff that goes thru my mind too painful to go into the worst part is i like my life better without my husband or kids ok let the judgmental comments begin at this point dont really care anyways actually dont care about anything have thought about si but it just plain sucks cuz i feel like i need help really bad like a 6 month inpatient type place even if its 90 days just to get much needed help & counseling & support i am crying out for help so bad & i hurt so much inside have an appt with t on the 7th i havent seen him for 3 months dunno how hes gonna react to how much ive went for the worst since the last time i saw him geez its not that i dont love my girls theres just stuff not right with me at all right now