Roseleigh- If its at all possible, I hope you can hold off on the SI until you talk with t. From the times I've SI'd I've regretted it a lot afterwards. My t has a policy that she cant help me for 24 hours after I SI which is a great motivator not to do it as well. SI for me is a way to show my pain when I cant express it in words. Luckily my t often can pick up on how much I'm hurting even when I am making no sense with my words. I trust your t will do the same. The SI isnt necessary to make t understand how much pain you are in. Combined with the fact that you regret it later on. I hope that you can wait to SI until you talk to T. If it is really bad please get yourself to an ER you deserve not to have to suffer like this.