Oddly enough, I was upset about a dr's appointment on friday crying about having to be tested for a bunch of things and worried I might be really physically sick. My husband opened up to me and said that its easier for him to brush everything off because he's worried for me too. He said he he sees whats going on with mania too and it hurts him because there's not much he can do. I'm just going to let everything drop now because I know he's hearing me, which is all I want. I know he needs his own space to process everything now. And I kinda do as well, because life just feels out of control lately.