Bama, this is a little off-topic, but have you considered getting out of that town? I'm sad for your sister and cousin, but I'm so concerned about you being surrounded by so much addiction.

I don't know if you realize how startling it is for me, a stranger, to read about your community. It's NOT like that everywhere, Bama. You could surround yourself with clean people somewhere else. I don't want you to give up on your family, but just until you're stable on your own two feet. I worry a lot about you down there