Poet, I'm actually glad to see you around here again because I've wondered you are. I'm not sure I meet the BPD criteria anymore--5 out of 9 or something? But that's not the point. My former T stuck to her rigid rules and after 5 plus years I was still attached to her. She made me cry after most sessions and my H said I was a basket case. That's not the case now. But I know you care, Poet. That feels good, so thank you. I'm not being sarcastic. My T and I are working out what the best solution is for the email situation. My expectations are now realistic. I wish I hadn't posted. Some things may be best handled between T and myself, but I haven't learned that yet.

I think my problem is posting about everything that goes on with my T. When will I ever learn not to? I really don't question my T. I just wanted another thread and attention, I think.

ECHOES and Perna: I know for a fact that my T changes her mind and bends her rules sometimes. She told me! She's not sure what the best policy is about my emailing. She said she had to "reevaluate" I think was her word. What's good for me and good for her. A compromise.

Tay, not I don't reply to all posts. I just thought 42 was high and I was impatient.

Oceanwave: Basically, at the end of my email I told her I went somewhere with my H and I told her how beautiful the full moon was, setting on the water, and also the city at night. She said to think how my body feels when I appreciate beautiful scenery. Something like that. I know she appreciates beauty too.

I suppose I will bring it up at my session though I think T and I understand each other and it's okay. Wish I hadn't posted though.