Rainbow, I have to agree with Poet, it does seem like you (unconsciously) manipulated your T into bending her rules in order to get from her what you want. But even that wasn't enough to really be satisfying because you wanted her to respond to the other stuff that she wants to only address in therapy sessions. Can't you see that you both are setting you up for even more disappointment when she doesn't respond that way next time? Boundaries are a good thing. If you push the limits too far, she will likely eventually cut off all email contact (when she "sees" the pattern and that it is not helping you)