Thanks everyone.....I am doing 'as well as can be expected' at the moment. I am glad that I took most of the day to do other things, although the meeting with the illustrator was largely about my relationship with my ex, as he will be working on two illustrations for me that are related to it. But it was ok. I was feeling emotionally detached at that point. I needed to detach from my emotions today. It's too overwhelming otherwise.

Tomorrow, I will focus on getting all the letters together, going to the police station to pick up documentation. Thinking about it causing me to feel anxious and on the verge of tears - and going through the "how can I hurt that little boy"....so I'm going to stop. I've decided to take the night off from thinking about it all. Yep, I'm making that decision for ME.