The thing in this post which screams to me is....your Mum has had the indiscretion to impact her daughters life with the swarm of negative consequences of being an addict.Will you get help now that you are a parent as well to end this treacherous cycle for your own child as your mum did not?There will always be opportunities do things which ultimately have tragic consequences.BUT....there will always be the fork in the path to take the road less traveled.One must stand up and choose....most critically when one is a parent.I cannot tell you what I refrained from for the sake of my children.I also made mistakes that I can never ever go back and repair.They are stains that I can't wash out.You can choose to refrain from interacting with her.What mum influences their daughter to partake in such an ultimately deadly endeavor?If you resent your mum for corrupting your life ....how will your child feel about your impact on theirs?You are SO VALUABLE!Seek recovery!