First of all ....you have received astute replies.I am very .....unconventional ,in that I am a numerologist,and a christian (haha),,,,I completely embrace the philosophy of reincarnation.That being said...One could only speculate if these feelings stem from an experience from a previous lifetime....or a repressed memory...or a part of your personna feeling undeserving simply because that is a part of your personality make up to begin with.I feel that every reply you received here is highly worthy of pondering.Let us all know what you think ....yes?~W~