I had couples therapy today, which is the one that truly exhausts me. I have gone over it with my own T and even asked my partner and couples T if we could cut back for awhile. But my partner and I have had a lot of stuff (mostly financial) to work on lately and we have been up to 2X this week. I am working on trying to stay present and strong during the session, and avoiding being sucked down into triggers. But what do you do when the stuff just needs to be talked about? It is so hard. I am trying to be strong and do the work. But fell into tears again in todays session. ANGER. Anger and serious self protection. I didn't shut down. But I did cross my arms, turn cold and tell my partner and my T that they did not know how it felt. (Because they don't).
Thing is, I am exhausted.
There is so much I need to do around the house but I feel rotten andcan't seem to move. I am on my 2 nd cup of strong coffee trying to finally get up the energy to do the things around the house I need to: laundry, dishes, etc. My eyes are sore from crying this morning and my body feels limp. Can anyone relate to being so tired after therapy that you can't seem to function? It is the times like this that I really wonder if I should be on better medication. I know I am dealing with past trauma. But I hate the ocassions where dealing with it seems to shut down my life.