I've been stuck in a funk lately and I don't know how to get out of it.

I have total complete lack of motivation. I don't want to get out of bed in the mornings. I often smack the snooze on my alarm for over an hour, and go to work late. Today I told my husband I was going in late to work, but I actually took the entire day off. I just feel like crap. We can't afford this. I have already used up all my sick leave for the year and now I'm burning vacation time and we planned a trip this summer.

I don't clean the house. I don't play with my little girl. Sunday morning Daddy was working the early shift - I got up and got her breakfast and went back to bed, and kept turning on another TV show for her and going back to bed. I finally rolled out of bed at about 10:30. How sick is that? Ignoring my own child?

I'm still spending money like I shouldn't. Not hundreds or thousands like I used to, but I got $15 unauthorized from the bank the other day and spent it on food, and I just now ordered a pizza on the credit card that we're trying not to use and pay off. We're drowning in debt because of me. Oh, and the car needs a brake job and wheel bearings and other stuff - $700 bucks. Fun.

A pill isn't going to fix me. Sitting in a chair for an hour and paying $185 bucks to a therapist isn't going to fix me. I need to fix me, myself. But I don't know how.

I've been in treatment for over 2 years now. I've come a long way - I was highly suicidal when I started. But just because I'm not seriously suicidal (still have thoughts!) doesn't mean I'm all better now.

How do I learn how to overcome this myself?