I have been with my boyfriend for nearly two years now, and we have known each other for four years. Backhistory of our relationship-this is our third time being together. The first time, we were together for 3 weeks and he was cheating on me with his ex so I broke up with him. The second time, (i made the mistake of going back to him just a couple of weeks after the first time) we were together for 2 weeks and he left me for his ex because she claimed to be pregnant with his baby.
We were separated for a year and a half after we broke up the second time so he could try to make something of himself since he thought he was going to be a father. Turns out it wasn't his kid.
During this year and a half period, he and I slowly began talking over the internet (he had moved 3000 miles away) and getting to know each other better as friends. He was in a relationship, I was in a relationship and we kept it at that. It wasn't until he found out the kid wasn't his that he admitted he still had feelings for me and apologized multiple times, not expecting me to give him another chance.
He moved back, and I gave him this last chance. But because of the past, as well as my insecurities with myself, I have a hard time trusting him. So far, I found out he had flirted with a couple of girls at the beginning of our relationship and had looked at some porn magazines.
I confronted him about something his youtube account (naked porn stars wrestling) and he claims he has no idea where it came from. I've confronted him about every little thing like this that I have found out about and he says he'll never do it again, but I'm not so sure.
Am I just being overly insecure? Or is he just hiding this stuff better and refusing to admit it?