It's good you're seeing someone. I really hope you get to trust your T. I have some phobias myself and I really know how difficult it is to get through them. One thing I've learned the hard way though: if you avoid the things you're afraid of, it just gets worse!! Sometimes that is like being stuck between a rock and a hard place, but if we keep working at it, and if we really want to get through it, I think that, in time, it might get easier!!! Good luck!!