((((Don't touch me))))
I know how you feel, I wanted to have a normal mother too. When I moved out at 21 years old I just wanted her to take me out for tea, shopping or even come over for lunch, she never did. Instead she drank 24/7. She would never even invite me over to just have a girls day and watch movies. Visiting her was harder than getting a reservation at a Hotel.
I know your pain.