I know one thing Clouds and Sun.....that to be married and unhappy is also not good. I was the opposite...I fell in love too easily and got married too easily. That was not good either. Your time will come when all is ready. I know being lonely is not good either. I get lonely at times now. I have been on my own for six years. I hope things work out for you. I don't know how you feel but I support you and very glad you are here!!!