Had a great day at work and class (group). I was in a cheery mood. Now I want to bawl. My son lives with the ex (hoping that changes soon). Just got off the phone with my lil guy since we talk to each other about every night. The hard part is saying "i love you" and "goodnight". It totally bursts any good bubbles I had, and I could curl up in bed and cry all night. He is so sad each time I talk to him, and he's already told me he'd rather "live with mom". Wish I could go back in time and change things