I am so scared I see T on wednesday. She doesnt yet know about the eating issue. However I am sure she hasnt missed my significant weight gain over the last year that I have seen her. I am wring a letter for her because I am not sure I will be able to spit it out when I get in the room. I am so afraid that she wont be able to really help me eventhough she specializes in eating disorders. I feel so hopeless right now...I just want to crawl in bed and stay there forever. My eating is just completely out of control and I have to try something. Between her and my dr I hope we can come up with a solution that doesnt seem completely impossible. I dont know I guess I will find out what she thinks wednesday after I tell her when I give her the letter. I am really scared but I gotta do something. So wednesday is the day!!